I think I realised, if you had accepted me, we wouldn’t have fit anyways –
But since one month, I always think of you, day and night,
I often dream I could hold you tight,
I often dream you would be by my side.
What kind of dream could be as sweet as that,
Which other sentiment could make me feel bad,
I have to give up my feelings for you,
But just now, still – I can’t.
Actually, I have my own plans, without you,
I don’t need you, I know –
But why can’t I forget you,
I love you, I know.
Sometimes I try to avoid you, this makes me cool down,
But I can’t always avoid you, we have the ways on our own,
And I think of you and miss you, I know you don’t know that,
But somehow I don’t mind.
No one knows how I feel toward you,
Who can understand?
When someone once light a fire in heart,
There’s a feeling that just starts.
The fire lit in heart is like a first impression,
If you once have it, it doesn’t want to go away,
And so my heart tells my feelings “please stay!”.
Oh, how unforgettable you are.
If we could forget easily, what would it mean for us,
Would it really be better?
Maybe no, because love goes its own way,
No matter what you try to say.
You can hide your feeling,
You can ignore it,
But love from the heart will always show up.
Written in: September 2012
Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.