Timo Schmitz: “December Storm” (2013)

If you hurt me, shall I forgive you?
When I forgive you, will you hurt me again?
Honestly I can forgive all you did wrong,
We are not perfect, but perfect is our universe,
And if you smash our universe it is nothing,
I still own my own universe, the innocent longing,
To connect my universe with that other one,
Making her the centre, and me the point who is addicted to it.
But you and me at the moment, it is nothing like that,
There are still two universes we call the ours, but not yet ready to get connected.
So if you go away – I won’t care,
If you go, I won’t cry,
I won’t regret!
And as it rained so heavily, a storm came up, and it became so dark.
A heavy tornado in my heart!
But as it passes by,
the rain stops to cry!
You think my heart is broken, you think you left it damaged.
Honestly, my heart feels as if it wants to explode,
But on the other side it feels stronger than all the time before.
And yet, when I see another cute girl, I’m still shy because I am afraid,
I am afraid of being hurt again.
And so I still think of you, and miss you secretly.
But as the days go by, I slowly forget our memories.
You are the last girl who has hurt me.
If such a situation comes again, I will be strong enough,
I won’t feel sad.
You don’t deserve that anyone cries after you.
That’s just true!
You just hurt others, without thinking, so easily,
You think the best woman you would be,
Have you ever thought of my feelings?
I don’t care about you anymore,
And someone like you just doesn’t deserve this attention.
So if a situation like this comes again, I will just laugh about it, and leave easily,
Without sorrow,
Without regret,
Without missing.
I could forget you and all our memories after we broke up.
I wonder, why do I always fall in love with those girls who don’t really care about me?
Is there no serious one with a serious interest ready to confess?
Those girls who tell about themselves that they are the best are often the worst,
While those girls who feel they are not so good, are honestly the best.
But such a good girl just doesn’t dare to confess,
While the bad girl is not caring about anything in life, and never cares about the other’s feelings – just like you did!
Your words were like a mirror.
You complained about me, but all you said is actually, about you – not about me.
It is easy to say it is my fault – and it is difficult for you to admit that it was just you.
You wanted me to feel bad – because it makes you stronger.
Do you know that you failed?
Although I feel bad just now, I will feel stronger, because I am aware that it was your fault.
I am aware that you are the one who hurt me – and not vice versa.
I am aware that there are so many people who are better than you,
I know that there is a real universe.
I have no memory of you,
I have no more feelings for you,
I don’t miss you.
It is as if you never existed in my life.
I only look forward – not backward.
Many relationships give us beautiful moments and wonderful lessons we will never forget,
Situations we will treasure.
But sometimes we meet people who are not worth to be remembered – who try to destroy that beautiful memories.
It is only few days past and I already throw a glance after other girls, bringing me new beautiful memories – but you are forgotten forever.

 

Written in: December 2012

Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.

Timo Schmitz: “If you had accepted me” (2013)

I think I realised, if you had accepted me, we wouldn’t have fit anyways –
But since one month, I always think of you, day and night,
I often dream I could hold you tight,
I often dream you would be by my side.

What kind of dream could be as sweet as that,
Which other sentiment could make me feel bad,
I have to give up my feelings for you,
But just now, still – I can’t.

Actually, I have my own plans, without you,
I don’t need you, I know –
But why can’t I forget you,
I love you, I know.

Sometimes I try to avoid you, this makes me cool down,
But I can’t always avoid you, we have the ways on our own,
And I think of you and miss you, I know you don’t know that,
But somehow I don’t mind.

No one knows how I feel toward you,
Who can understand?
When someone once light a fire in heart,
There’s a feeling that just starts.

The fire lit in heart is like a first impression,
If you once have it, it doesn’t want to go away,
And so my heart tells my feelings “please stay!”.
Oh, how unforgettable you are.

If we could forget easily, what would it mean for us,
Would it really be better?
Maybe no, because love goes its own way,
No matter what you try to say.

You can hide your feeling,
You can ignore it,
Doubt it,
But love from the heart will always show up.

 

Written in: September 2012

Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.

Timo Schmitz: “That’s the way, my love just tasted” (2013)

When I asked to meet you again,
You behaved strange to me,
I just had a try,
But you didn’t agree,
It made me so shy.

I was sad in that moment,
I just wanted to cry,
I was strong enough,
But you made me so shy.

I just wonder if we really fit,
Or is there anything matching,
It wasn’t just the perfect hit,
Now the pain is catching.

My beloved, what did I do wrong,
Maybe I just had the wrong idea for a meeting,
Sometimes I feel my patience is gone,
Shall we go out for a coffee, or even go out for eating.

Have you been in a bad mood today?
Have you been tired?
My strength is fading away,
Anything you desired?

I still secretly love you, still try my best,
Even if there’s a lot of time wasted,
You are really not like the rest,
That’s the way, my love just tasted.

 

Written in: August 2012

Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.

Timo Schmitz: “Missing communication” (2013)

I feel you like me a bit,
But you don’t pay attention to me,
So I feel very sad,
Because maybe the way you like me is just “like”,
And not “love”.

I don’t know what I shall think of you,
Because I love you very much,
But you don’t know it,
And I can’t tell you.

I don’t want others to know it,
Because if you will refuse,
Then I will feel bad,
But I want you to know my love,
I just can’t tell you.

Some days have passed now,
And I saw you rarely,
And I miss you much more,
But you don’t know it,
And I can’t tell you.

I feel ashamed,
I don’t want to ask for a date,
I want you to ask me first,
But I can’t let you know.

What do you think of me,
Give me a sign,
I will answer you,
But you don’t tell me.

Written in: August 2012

Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.

Timo Schmitz: “Blue Sky” (2013)

After this morning’s sorrow,
we had the chance to be next to each other again,
you paid attention to me, between us there might be a tomorrow,
We are moving forward, but will you love me? When?

It was just a small moment, I am happy to see,
You finally care, about you and me,
But now it’s your turn, please give me a clue,
Whisper in my ears “the sky is blue”.

Written in: August 2012

Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.

Timo Schmitz: “Awaiting” (2013)

Should I feel happy or should I feel sad,
The longing in my heart, my secret dream, is it what I will get?
I told you, but I am still waiting for an answer, and new hope in my heart,
Awaiting – and still no words from your side, my heart is not yet apart,
And in a moment I think of you I feel so happy,
But my heart is still chappy,
I don’t know what you will say,
And if you agree, will you stay?

Awaiting – for two days, it feels like two weeks,
And knowing you care me brings a color on my cheeks,
But no answer from you, does it mean you did not receive it?
Or do you ignore me, and you don’t wanna see it?
You have to face the truth – now or later,
But if you let me alone, I’m not going to wait for ya,
So think of it quickly and tell me soon,
Because I am ready to love again.

 

Written in: June 2012

Adopted from: Schmitz, Timo. For better and for worse – A collection of poems. Berlin, 2013. ISBN 978-3-8442-6222-3. All rights reserved.